Confession #3

For years -5 or 6-, I've been dying to leave school. Dying. That I need my "change of atmosphere", that I can't stand my classmates, etc. Now, seeing myself about.. 4 months from graduating, I am still dying to leave school :D I -do- hate it, not because of the classes, but because of the routine and the lack of links I have in there. However, I am shitafraid of college. Even if I know I will find new people in there.. Do I want to? Do I really want to? ._. I've made my life according to the people I already know. I probably have met less than 5 "real friends" in the last 2-3 years, and have lost most -but not all- of the friends I met 4 years ago. Don't get me wrong - I adore my friends, but I -am- afraid of meeting new people. Specially because it's either I will blindly trust in that person, or I won't, at all.

Of course, there are other things in the whole "college thing" that I am afraid of. The exam, for example, or the transport -I hatehatehate Peruvian buses-, or the college lifestyle itself.
I know I need the change, and I want the change to come... But that doesn't mean that I'm not afraid of it. And yes - I do know it's normal to fear such a thing.

iTunes: Kill Your Gods - Rage.