Confession #26

True happiness is hard to find.
But it eventually comes, when you stop looking for it.

iTunes: Hasta que me olvides - Luis Miguel

Confession #25

Humans.. Are animals.
Deal with it.

iTunes: Saddle the wind - Rage

Confession #24

Try, and you'll achieve.

iTunes: I walk alone - Tarja Turunen

Confession #23

I'll repeat what I want to do with my life... countless times. I just want to believe that I am not afraid of what's ahead.

iTunes: ...De todas mis heridas - Elfonía

Confession #22

I haven't thought of anything special that should be placed here.
Sorry.

iTunes: Knowing me, knowing you - ABBA

Confession #21

I'm not alone. I'm not alone.
I won't be.

iTunes: No Return - Tarot

Confession #20

Feel no regrets.

iTunes: Perfect Love - Alyson Avenue

Confession #19

Sometimes, I start imagining what my life would be like if we loved eachother again.

I need to stop doing that.

iTunes: Se nos muere el amor - Ricardo Arjona

Confession #18

..And I still remember those nights where you'd give anything just to see me smile.

Y si reía le daba la luna..

iTunes: 11 y 6 - Fito Paez

Confession #17

Dreams will be dreams until you make them true.

iTunes: Our Last Summer - ABBA

Confession #16

Why?

Because you complete me.

iTunes: Quiero - Ricardo Arjona

Confession #15

Problem with him is that he'll never hold me tight.

Nothing lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change.

iTunes: November Rain - Guns n' Roses

Confession #14

I can't stand to see the ones I love suffering, without even knowing what is wrong.

It tears mi apart.

iTunes: Last Kiss - Pearl Jam

Confession #13

Even if you've accept that love has gone by, that love is over, and it may never come back.. You will always have that fading glimpse of hope that it will.

Even if you wouldn't change your reality for that person, even if you wouldn't "be together" again.

Meh. This is probably one of the most strange confessions that I've made.

iTunes: La Incondicional - Luis Miguel

Confession #12

I'm not alone.
You'll be inside my mind, as long as I need you, you'll be there.

iTunes: Haunted - Stream of Passion

Confession #11

You never know what will happen in a certain amount of time. Never, forever, "tomorrow I will"... All those terms mean nothing. What once was your world may tomorrow be hell. Who knows?

Who fucking knows?

iTunes: Whenever you need someone - Alyson Avenue

Confession #10

It's not those who would die for you who love you the most.
It's those who would kill for you.

iTunes: Submission - Rage

Confession #9

What happens when you can't live for today?
When all you worry about is tomorrow?
Or when you're just anxious for what will happen tomorrow.

Oh, what to do when life is passing you by?

You live.

iTunes: Spell of iron - Tarot

Confession #8

It's a shame you can't decide who you fall for, or who you love.
But maybe, that's the thrill of love.

iTunes: Turn my world around - Rage

Confession #7

Love takes time, strength, devotion, trust..
Love is beautiful, while it lasts.
When it's over, it hurts. Sometimes, it hurts so much you'll ask yourself if there's a reason for a tomorrow.
Sometimes.

But most of the times, you'll be able to move on, eventually.
It will take time.

iTunes: Erämaan Viimeinen - Nightwish

Confession #6

I need to see the "bright side" of life.
I need to be more positive.
That way, I'll have the strength to achieve what I desire.

iTunes: Off.

Confession #5

Everyone has problems. Some kids cry because they have to work their asses off for their families, others because they can't deal with school -or the people in school-. This doesn't mean one problem is less important than the other, it's their problem: It affects them, so it matters. This doesn't mean that I believe that people shouldn't be aware or worried for other people with "more serious problems", but I don't think it's fair to say that that person has no problems at all because he/she has a house, or money, or education. It is still a problem, and it's his/her problem. It affects that person.

Oh, sure, there are lots of people who exaggerate many things. :D

iTunes: Now and Forever - Air Supply

Confession #4

Time... Is a complete bitch.
It goes way too fast. Sometimes, you want it to pass quicly.. But.. There are times which you just want to lay down and enjoy the moment.. How many of these moments are actually long enough for us to enjoy it fully?
If I try to imagine my "yesterday", I'm able to see so many things... And I am able to remember some things so vividly, that it hurts when you discover how much time has passed since then, how many things have changed.
And how many changes there are yet to come.

iTunes: Un Refrain Courait Dans la Rue - Edith Piaf

Confession #3

For years -5 or 6-, I've been dying to leave school. Dying. That I need my "change of atmosphere", that I can't stand my classmates, etc. Now, seeing myself about.. 4 months from graduating, I am still dying to leave school :D I -do- hate it, not because of the classes, but because of the routine and the lack of links I have in there. However, I am shitafraid of college. Even if I know I will find new people in there.. Do I want to? Do I really want to? ._. I've made my life according to the people I already know. I probably have met less than 5 "real friends" in the last 2-3 years, and have lost most -but not all- of the friends I met 4 years ago. Don't get me wrong - I adore my friends, but I -am- afraid of meeting new people. Specially because it's either I will blindly trust in that person, or I won't, at all.

Of course, there are other things in the whole "college thing" that I am afraid of. The exam, for example, or the transport -I hatehatehate Peruvian buses-, or the college lifestyle itself.
I know I need the change, and I want the change to come... But that doesn't mean that I'm not afraid of it. And yes - I do know it's normal to fear such a thing.

iTunes: Kill Your Gods - Rage.

Confession #2

Well!
I just discovered my adored ex boyfriend actually is a year younger than I thought. Not a great deal. He never looked as old as I thought he was. Why is this a "confession"? No idea. I guess it is just some kind of "enlightment". This has been "Alex's weekend", after all. I even had a dream about him... We would look at eachother, locking our eyes together. We were surrounded by a bunch of people - No idea who they were. We were just standing there. At times, I would be doing something else, and I felt his eyes over me. At times, my eres were pierced to his figure, while he was doing another thing.
We didn't talk. Or maybe we did - Just a couple of lines, in a computer room. I can't remember what we said, though. But I do remember how he reached across the room and hugged me. And I also remember how, when I was already awake, I would daydream about him being near me.

Oh, fuck. I'm goings nuts over the fact that I can't get over him. And no, this is not "Blog Entry"-worthy. I'm still over the whole procedure of "I may not love him anymore, but he is still as present as he was a year before, he is still in my dreams, in my daydreams." Yay me. I'm in the exact position as I was a year and a month ago. Plus, I need to go to the bathroom (?).

It was lost long ago, but it's all coming back to me.

iTunes: It's all coming back to me now - Celine Dion.

Confession #1

Oh, let's face it.
You will never forget your first love. You will never forget the magical things you shared with this person. You will never forget the things you discovered with them, the feelings you shared.
But when it's long-lost, far from being "possible" again.. There is nothing else you could do but move forward. No, it's not easy. And you probably won't be "over" this person until you meet someone else, and love that person more or as much as you loved the first one.
Why? Whoever fucking knows, please, tell me. Because I am nowhere near of meeting or falling for someone else, and I lost this person almost two years ago, and he's still in my friggin' mind. :3
No, I don't "love him", I don't think I know him anymore! But sure as heck I haven't forgotten him :D... Yet.

iTunes: Deep in the Night - Rage.